Twenty years ago this week Antiseen’s Jeff Clayton was in
the studio when he received a call that his friend, notorious punk musician
G.G. Allin, had died of an overdose. Clayton and members of Biggy Stardust,
Self-Made Monsters, Dirty South Revolutionaries, the Chalkies, and Rapegoat pay tribute to Allin Friday at Tremont Music Hall with Hated: The Music of
G.G. Allin.
In 1994 when I moved to Charlotte people in music circles
were still talking about the time Allin spent here. I imagine the stories have
trickled down to new generations of punk fans now.
“He would spend a week here after every one of his tours
starting after the first time he got out of prison,” says Clayton whose band
Antiseen backed Allin on the “Murder Junkies” album. “He was here a week before
he died.”
Antiseen’s association with Allin began in the mid `80s when
both acts were featured on a compilation double cassette release.
“We didn’t really think much about it until we saw an
interview with him in ‘Maximum Rock n’ Roll.’ It didn’t have any crazy
pictures, but hearing them talk about his shows. He was hitting on the same
thing we did with that confrontational thing and maybe taking it further,” says
Clayton of Allin’s controversial live shows which usually escalated in a near
naked Allin defecating, smearing himself with feces, and belligerently inciting
the crowd to riot or fight him - not a show for everyone. “He would always have
magazines print his phone number in interviews. (Antiseen guitarist) Joe
(Young) and I were talking - ‘We need to get him down here. We need to see this
show.’”
Young called Allin and dared him to play Charlotte. They booked the building beside the
Milestone Club which was then called The Church of Musical Awareness. Athens’
the Primates volunteered to back him.
“In the first 30 minutes everything we’d ever heard about happened,”
recalls Clayton. “It was a blitzkrieg. Before you knew it, it was over.
We had to make a hasty exit.”
Clayton pulled his car around and Young quickly escorted
Allin - covered only in a trench coat and his own filth - outside.
“We took off and I’m just kind of staring at him and we both
just started laughing,” says Clayton “From that night on we were in close contact.”
The two exchanged letters while Allin was incarcerated for assault. Some
of those letters are part of a new limited edition book, “My Prison Walls” (pictured above), which is
set for release in August. The book includes “30 Days in the Hole” - Allin’s
handwritten journal chronicling his first days in prison - as well as
illustrations, art and prose by Allin and correspondence with his family and
convicted serial killer John Wayne Gacy.
“They were looking for the envelopes he’d customize and mail
from prison,” says Clayton of the publisher. “I sent a couple letters. I had a
file in my file cabinet of them - this is when he was alive. I wasn’t even
thinking he wasn’t going to be with us much longer.”
Despite Allin’s on stage persona, Clayton characterizes him
as just another friend.
“When he was just hanging out with us he was just like any of our other friends. People got this misconception of him being this
introverted, miserable person. He seemed to love life. He was always laughing,
always wanting to hear jokes, tell jokes, play jokes on people. When it was
time for him to go from Kevin (his real name) to G.G. he could flip that switch
in a second. I’ve seen the switch get popped first hand. When he was in G.G. mode
he was a different person,” he says.
Clayton disagrees with Allin being portrayed as a junkie.
“It wasn’t all drug and alcohol-fueled. People have the
impression he was a junkie and he was not. He wasn’t even a full-time drug
user. If you showed up with a handful of stuff he’d say, ‘Hey, sure,’” he adds.
The dichotomy of the real person versus the stage persona is
one Clayton understands. The first time I saw Clayton he was dripping with
blood on stage at The Ritz on Independence opening for the Ramones. I freaked
out when I realized shopping at Repo Records where Clayton worked a few weeks
later that the thick scar on his forehead meant that blood was real. Yet nearly
20 years later I know Clayton’s not a bleeding maniac all the time. It’s all
part of the show.
“I understood it completely,” says Clayton who mimics
professional wrestlers on stage by cutting himself and sometimes jumping
through tack-covered, burning tables with his face covered in blood.
“We don’t incite the kind of interaction G.G. incited with
his audience, but I could easily go into that if I was willing to. I have a
little more at stake than G.G. did,” says Clayton who works a regular job and
has three children in addition to still touring with his 30-year-old band. “G.G.
literally carried everything he owned in a tiny suitcase and was ready to leave
town in a moment’s notice. It’s not like he had to make arrangements. He’d just
find a car going North, South, East or West.”
Although Allin threatened to commit suicide on stage -
another reason his performances attracted gawkers no doubt - he died of an
overdose after his most volatile performance.
“He wasn’t as much into self-abuse at that time as much as
he was assaulting the audience. That show at the Gas Station (in Manhattan) was
probably the most brutal show that happened. It spilled out into the street and
people were having a riot out in front of that place. G.G. just walked away,”
says Clayton. “G.G. just jumped in a cab wearing nothing but his jock strap and
vest.”